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Astrea responds:
Dear Steph,
Refuse to be discouraged and take comfort in knowing that things are finally getting better for you. Soon you can begin to follow your holy calling to help others, which is why all these terrible things happened in the first place.
In your celestial incarnation before this lifetime, you must have agreed to let these awful things happen to you. You wanted to understand completely what it is to suffer like that so that you could help others heal. The Light is a holy calling, and it's on you as much as your own skin. Don't deny this gift.
Certainly what was done to you was immoral, illegal, and just plain wrong. As I read your letter again, I was struck with a feeling that you haven't exhausted all your legal avenues. Even if you can't file criminal charges against the people who did these awful things to you, maybe you can take civil action and hit them where it will hurt them the most - in their wallets.
Of course, money is not going to take away all your pain - you must discover what will within yourself.
A common therapy is to confront those who have done us wrong. If you choose this as part of your recovery, do it in front of a witness like a friend or police officer. Confronting wrongdoers sometimes helps us find peace and forgiveness. Even if you can't forgive them, please stop blaming yourself for what happened.
If you don't feel ready for confrontation, write them a letter spelling out exactly how they caused you suffering. Tracing the chronology of all you went through will also help you heal.
Even though it may be very hard for you to trust anyone involved with the medical profession, do not stop therapy! What happened to you is too extreme for you to resolve it alone. You are going to need lots of support as you grow stronger and learn to trust your own judgment.
There are other people who are suffering from past hurts just as deep as your own. Those people need your help. During the next five years, I can see you and your therapist writing a best-selling book about your personal experiences and your healing journey. This will bring you not only a big financial reward, but also the peace your soul is longing for.
Others will begin to come to you for help with their own healing, and you will find a sense of purpose for your life that will make you happy beyond your wildest dreams. Open your life to the God-force that is so strong in you. Your survival depended on that holy force, but now it can be the source of new happiness.
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Susyn responds:
Dear Steph,
I'm sorry for all the difficult experiences you've been through, and can understand your anger and resentment for the way you've been treated. You are correct, however, when you say that you must resolve and move past these experiences in order to heal and create peace and happiness for yourself.
First of all, I would continue to look for someone who may be able to help you legally. Even though the statute of limitations has elapsed, there may be lawyers who would accept your case on a contingency basis, especially if these events happened when you were a juvenile.
In the mean time, there are a number of ways to stop the feelings of fear and powerlessness that tend to consume your days. I imagine that your ability to trust has been greatly damaged, so it's time to find a spiritual group or practice through which to work on that particular issue.
Buddhism has many ways to help you restore and reconnect your inner spirit. The Nichiren sect of Buddhism focuses on restoring one's power, changing one's karma, and in the process, releasing the past. You may want to research groups in your area and find one that can provide you with simple chanting practices. These have worked like magic for many people, myself included.
Keeping a journal and working with a therapist will also help you clear the past and let go of your anger. This is essential, for as long as your past haunts you, it will continue manifesting as health problems or a feeling of hopelessness.
Keep in mind that we all have karmic destinies to experience in this lifetime, and as difficult as they may seem, these events are designed to make us stronger. Often when these situations occur, the person involved will find themselves becoming an advocate for others, so you may want to seek out a support group and focus on helping other people who have suffered. In this way, you can turn your hardships into valued assets instead of just lamenting them.
You could also pursue an astrological or psychic reading on these experiences, as this could give you a powerful new perspective on them or answer your questions regarding why you had to go through all of this. These types of readings will also give you information about your future so you can relax and not concern yourself about anything like this happening to you again.
Finally, rest assured that things will improve from here on out, for it sounds like you have finally reached a place where you are ready to release the past so you can move into a much brighter, happier future. |
